So I have some scans on Friday this week. My follow up appointment is on Wednesday next week. I will get an injection and discuss the results of my scans. We don't know what they will tell us yet. Could be good, could be bad. We are optimistic because some of the indicators we have seen. We don't know if they have shrunk but we do know that their definition is not as good as it once was.
I am going to share something that I normally don't but have felt like I needed to. This is not intended to lift me up or put me on a pedestal but rather share an experience that has helped me understand how blessed I really have been through this entire experience. I have several friends who have been going through some struggles recently. I feel their trials have been pretty heavy and wanted to help in any way I could possibly. Sometimes it isn't about physical things we do for people. I learned in my youth that you can pray to have our blessings reallocated if you will. So I prayed that the blessings I had been receiving would be passed on to my friends who were struggling. I really didn't expect to happen what happened next. For the next 3 weeks I felt my blessings go. I was in a great deal of pain from my treatments and didn't recover like I had been previously. After several treatments I still couldn't recover. Physically and mentally I was exhausted and just felt like blah. I really can't describe how I felt but it was so different than what I had been experiencing. There is no doubt in my mind that the blessings people have prayed that I would get were passed on to others (I willingly asked for and hoped this would happen). My hope is that their burden was made somewhat lighter and that they were able to feel some peace during that time.
The biggest thing this really did for me was helped me to realize how truly blessed I am. If I felt the way I did for those 3 weeks for a longer period of time it would be awful and I am not sure how I would function. Fortunately I have felt those blessings come back and am feeling soooo much better now. Most of the pain is gone and the blah feeling has gone away. The power of prayer does work and God works in his ways (and through his children) to help all of our burdens be lightened.
#cancersucks #fightlikehell
